Monday, February 07, 2005

My Noble Parents and GrandmotheR!!! I LOVE U ALL VERY VERY MUCH!!!

Yeah... Chinese New Year is round the corner... haha... and u noe wat that means? haha.. collection of red packets.. haha... yea...

but nt forgetting... the packing, the preparations etc.... but no matter what is it.. i guess me and my sisters have been enjoying what we are doing or have done.. heehee... right sisters? ^_^

This morning, granny was talking to me abt the past when my dad was much much younger... in his childhood days.... my late grand-dad was a person who did nt care much abt the family... it was my granny who earn $$ by all sorts of hawking to support the big big family.... my granny added that dad didnt had a gd life in the past.... instead of schooling, he have to spend his time with granny to sell things... and it happen tat there were some 'aunties' that love to get my dad to do things for them... thus all my dad's childhood were mainly serving ppl.... my granny's tears went rolling down as she continue... she thinks that she owes my dad the most.... the other siblings get to study and my dad got to do all the 'dirty jobs' thus she mentioned that she will dote my dad and his children more... i was lost for words.. i really dunno what to say.... i always thought that my dad is lazy and dun like studying.... but certainly some portion of the sentence is true... apparently, my dad dislikes studying... my granny agrees too... but my granny added that if i have the $$ to hire a tutor for him, he will still make it somehow.... actually at this part of our conversation, something suddenly struck me.... i remembered that when i was in Junior College, my dad once told me... 'if u think u cant cope it urself and u need a tutor, tell me' and nt long after, i told my dad that i think i really need a tutor to guide me along... and in the end i did get myself a tutor... i dunno it's my own effort or is it with the help of the tutor, i manage to get nt too bad results for my A level... this really make me think.. is he trying his best to give me whatever he missed when he's younger? actually all these really makes my heart soften... to think that my dad had such a past... sometimes i really wish i could give him the whole world....

of course... that's the noble story of my dad... but i can tell u tat my mum is even more noble... there's too much nice and great things abt my mum.... too long to be listed... wait till i am free... i will update more abt my NOBLE mum... a person i am proud to have as my mother.... and wishes to give her more than the whole world... the whole universe....

oh, let me update something else first.... today my dad's cousin came to my hse to visit my granny... always here near new year time... this uncle of mine... he's damn smart... a doctorate degree in chemical ______.... nt that sure.... apparently, i think he got smart children as well... doctors i think.... but these are nt that main point... the main point is that granny praise me in front of him... in fact, actually granny always praise me in front of many relatives.... she always say that i am filfial, obedient, intelligent, diligent.... work part time while studying.... know that i have to help my dad out esp at this pt of time... i really have the intention to lighten the burden of my parents when i went to take up part time.... but the things is that... my granny really praise me and 'image' me as a really gd gal... actually, come to think i am nt that gd well... i really feel bad when i think that i am really nt as gd as granny say.... of course, i feel proud when she sing praises of me... bt the thing is that... when she say i am smart... it somehow did pressurised me... thinking tat my fav thing last sem was to skip lect, skip tut... my results are thhose that just make it kind... haiz... i really dunno what is a smart person if i am considered smart.... i dunno... i dun wanna correct granny... i want her to have the best image of me all the time.... actually seeing her through all these pains she's going through makes me sad... and starts to think abt life.... i really hope tat she can live a hundred years.... to see me grow up from a young little gal who loves to eat siu mai, to an independent young lady, to a mature woman and a capable mother, a loving grandmother... i noe these are all very greedy... but i really wish that she will be along to share my happiness.... i really hope that i can get attached quickly and bring my bf back to let her see... i dunno will she be happy to see my bf, but i noe tat i will be over the sky if i get the chance to show her my bf.... of course... i am nt to the extend of a desperate gal... but the thing is that i really wanna share my joy with her... i really hope that she see me in my grad ceremony and my wedding and my children's wedding.... ^_^ heehee... a little too much huh... but i still want it.... ^_^

CherrieminT