Sunday, January 29, 2006

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR... today is the first day of cny.. angbow collection is real bad.. i guess this year cant even hit $100.. it's the first year celebrating new year without gran... it really feel different... uncles and aunties still came over.. but all didnt stay long... without gran, the pillar is nt there... the next oldest pillar is not useful at all.. instead, creating fears and irritation among ppl... thought nothing has yet happen.. but just pray for the best..

didnt manage to wakey in time to go praying in the morning... too tired... havent been visiting gran.. i guess she really miss me... i miss her very much also... in just a few weeks time, it's gran's 1st anniverary... my my... so fast.. cant believe...

mum's cousin came today... as usual mum is so proud of her daughters... mentioned abt me in nus.. (no big deal lor... ) den i'm working.. surviving myself.. (true, but seems like also no big deal) but she just cant seem to forget to mention abt me... and this really reminds me of gran... whoever visits her... she will never forget to mentioned abt me.. praising me on every little thing... even praise me in front of my own dad.... seriously i miss her praises.. i really miss her...

i've been visiting gran's sibling as much as i could try... dunno why.. just wanna bring the best image of myself in front of them to live up to gran praises... everytime i see them it just make me rem gran... i really miss her... everyone is sleeping now.. i got no one to talk to anymore... it makes me feel really sad...

was at the airport with aunt cousin and sisters.. aunt was telling us abt the older times... i really appreciate gran even more... there is so many stories tat was not told by gran... *of course.. she wouldnt praise herself* i wish i had done more..

CherrieminT

Sunday, January 15, 2006

bUsy BusY WeeK...

Had a busy weekend... went visiting grandaunt on sat and after tat went right to work... and my saturday was gone before i knew it... went tuition in the morning... most boring tuition i ever had.. guess i must reflect on tat huh.. den was back home, trying to do the perfect gift for my parent's wedding anniversary.. den i was on my way to cineleisure.. late as usual.. haha.. catching memories of a geisha.. nice nice... haha... i guess i'm simply easily satisfied... very show is nice nice to me.. haha.. as long as i dun have to pay.. haha.. **jia, heard tat??** haha...

lately i've been cracking joke tat are not funny... **hmm.. den i guess they are no longer known as joke huh.. heehee** but at least i think is funny to me.. haha...
Have been smiling to myself for the slightest thought running in my mind... hah.. guess if ppl were to see tat.. i think they really think i am crazy... i guess i might be becoming crazy soon... trying to laugh and smile my troubles away... obviously this must be one of the most stressful period of my life... otherwise wont be smiling as much as lately..

anyway, 2 of my closest friends are back together... haha.. good good... was rather worried for them... been together for so long.. it will be tough for both if they have to live without each other huh... haha ^_^ congrats and good luck... haha...

CherrieminT

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Back To SchooL

Haha... Lucky i'm not an earLy birD... watching the news just now... terrorism exercise thingy... haha... Both Toa Payoh MRT and Terminal was involved... was there but lucky not at that time.. hee... not trying to say that the drill is not necessary.. but me being to timid, so useless... and always late.. haha... sure a prob there.. and den u see me on news... passenger fainted... haha..

went movies with nick, jia and her sis... haha... dunno why end up sitting in between nick and jia.. haha.. very bright... u noe wat i mean.. haha.. think nick must be sad huh... right jia.. haha... kidding lar... i dun mind sitting in between u all at any time.. haha... kidding again.. dunno why just wanna be funny.. haha.. but i noe it's not funny... sorry...

anyway... this sem really gonna be both an early bird and a night one as well... got lessons early in the morning as well as late in the evening... esp, THURS... 8 to 8.. coolz huh...

guess i really got to go and ZZZZ.. otherwise wont wake up early enuff...

CherrieminT

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

GraN, I MISS YOU!!!!

Today is just the second day of the brand new year.. and i seem to be having a bit of trouble 'fulfilling' my resolution... LeaRn not to be a Cry BabY... but my tears went rolling again.. i miss you, gran... esp when i listen JJ's song... the way he call ah-ma... i just cant stop thinking abt you... it's been like almost a year since uleft... but i just cant stop thinking abt u...

阿嬷躺在病床上
呼吸有一点散漫
眼神却很温柔

i just simply cant forget the scene where gran was lying on the hospital's bed, brushing through my hair... telling me she miss me.. i was preparing for my mid term, didnt see me for 2-3days...

on the day before she discharge, she was trying to plan was to cook for us... we were telling her we miss eating at home... gran, i really miss eating the food u cook... u havent pass me ur skills... u noe?

i really feel so so guilty... the day gran left me.. i didnt talk to her much... didnt noe she will leave me so suddenly.. she was so well when she's discharge... it's just like 2 days... although the whole family has been adapting hard to life without her... but it's really really hard... i really miss her... esp when lyn is back in sch... ann's working... so is dad and mum... and i'm all alone at home... i just cant stop missing her... cant stop thinking abt her...

suddenly so many things struck me... suddenly remember tat i promise her to buy granduncle's noodle and fried oyster egg for her when i am free... but i only got it twice over 2 years... suddenly feel so bad...

i really miss the time when i can back late from work, from jogging, she will be there awake watching tv... waiting for me... the only person i can confight when i came home from work or from sch... the person who will always be willing to apply medicated oil on my problematic stomach no matter what time of the day.. even in the middle of the night... ah ma, my stomach is much more obedient nowadays... seldom diarrhoea... seldom contispate... nose bleeding occasionally... but better... i really know how to take care of myself... not as sickly as last time... dun worry too much abt me..

CherrieminT

Sunday, January 01, 2006

It's a branD neW YeaR!!

Was previously counting down to my birthday.. wow.. it's like my birthday was like a week ago.. ha.. time flies... haha.. work sleep work sleep... so busy.. planning for my new sem.. dunno if i shld minor or not... if i am minor-ing, that means sem 7 and 8 i will be doing 2 level 3000 mod.. stress leh... finaLLy deciDed.. but still worrying.. guess this really lead me to my NEW YEAR RESOLUTION!! haha...

JaSMinE's New YeaR ResoLutIons
This gaL really got to learn to
- be DECIDSIVE
- be INDEPENDENT
- be more adaptive
- not to be a cry baby
- CONCENTRATE more on STUDYING!
- take things easy and less panicky
- Find my long lost DETERMINATION
- DRIVE
- ParT with my FAVOURITE TELEVISION

Ha, at the moment, that shld be it... In general learn to be a better person...

CherrieminT