Sunday, July 16, 2006

I'M SO SO SO SO BUSY!!!!!

oh, forgotten to mention... so coincident... yesterday went over to pitstop, in the afternoon... stayed there for 2 hours... got to work... if no we sure stay longer.. haha... at ard 10 or sth, received a sms.. from MY.. she saw my foto at pitstop.. haha.. so qiao... haha... she was there in the evening... too bad, didnt get to meet each other...

WJ called just now... talked for quite awhile... haha.. was telling her that she got my first choice.. but anyway, it's so qiao... or rather i shld say, great minds think alike.. haha... good good.. anyway, got the same prof.. doing sth similar... at least in the same field... hopefully can help each other some how... told me abt her sep... so envious... oh, just rem, the other WJ told me abt his SEp... over at sweden.. enjoy xia.. even more envious... haha...

anyway, wanted to meet up with WJ, SJ and cindy.. but everyone is so busy... couldnt find a common free day... pathetic huh... so decided tat we shld meet up after my vip... den got more free time... can go where ever we want...

went out the whole day today.. shopping.. library.. shopping.. haha... borrowed books on herbs, aromatherapy... see if i like these things.. den maybe take a module from pharmarcy... something to do with these... i still dun really have the time to settle down in front of the computer and analyze the modules to be taken next sem...

got really a great deal of stuff to do... cant stand it anymore... seem to have not enuff time for everything.. feel rather fed up with myself.. can spend time shoppin, blogging... but no time for serious planning..

okie.. going read the books i've borrowed... hope i could update soon... pathetic...

CherrieminT

Tired tired LiFe.. i need a BREAK!!

i didnt enjoy my week at work.. dun really have much assignments on hand... was looking for things to do... help a bit here and there... but dun enjoy.. cos nothing belong to me... just doing some manual or rather labour jobs here and there...

mow called me on thurs night... already had a long long week, not to say long long day.. den chatted on the fone until slightly past 12... keep asking me.. whether if i regretted breaking up with him etc etc.. haha.. den i didnt have much to rebel him.. ann was beside me when i was chatting.. den she reminded me tat i can bombard him with the same thing.. asking if he regretted not cherishing me... etc etc... haha... so in the end we bombarded each other with these qns.. haha... a bit stupid lar... but okay lar... still the same.. chatting with him still makes me laugh my heart out at times... haha... always thought my no was already well memorised by him.. deep down in his heart.. cos i noe tat gal of his deleted my no. haha... the actual fact is tat he saved under some nicknames.. mine was under my nic tat my family calls me... haha... anyway, told me alot of his ns stuff... didnt really understand.. but okay lar...

today went for clinic training... initially thought it's some posh seminar room with catered food etc... but okay lar... it's some office with packet food... and coffee club coffee... not that bad... didnt take as long as i thought it might... now i really noe wat is 3 women = 1 market... we had ard 9 women.. and tat means it's 3 markets.. haha... after the training session, the journey from the place to the train station was super noisy.. everyone is talking... talking... haha... but had great deal of fun... den ling and i got to go back to work.. so decided tat we should go somewhere to hang ard.. in the end, 6 of us went to marina sq... chat and chat... from ard 12 plus to 2 plus... first time going out with them... haha... in fact, it's really very fun.. den when 3 parted with us, left with jo, ling and myself... den we walk down to pitstop... took some time to find the way... by the time we reached there, it's ard 3 plus... den we started playing games.. had a great deal of fun as well... i was thinking we should go der in a big big grp... all the *ard* 15 of us... haha... den it's really a super super big big market.... imagine 15 gals.. haha... i really cant imagine the noise we can make.. haha... just a few of us is already so nosiy.. den if all the 15 of us.. wow.. think the building will collapse... haha.. but too bad... clinic is open everyday.. not much of a chance to go out all together... kinda of sad... but still must find means and ways to go out together....

oh, was offered by peiru whether if i wanna go thai together with her friends... hmm.. cant decide... feel like going.. cos it's cheap and 6days 5night... can really take my own sweet time to explore thai leh.. but very sianz leh.. already went thai so many times liao... still go... besides, she will be flying on the 27th.. i scare i wont be able to leave work... so i got no idea... havent agree... but really feel like lor... upset...

oh, called wen on wed night to catch up with her ever since the last ktv session.. was a short short conversation... was on my way to tuition... so couldnt talk too much... she called me on fri evening... talk abt her work.. haiz, if that's my working environment, i will die lor... sianz... but money is always my motivation... her pay is good.. so it will be super difficult for me if i'm in her shoes... haiz... feel super sorrie abt it... but haiz... no choice... office politics... diff to avoid.. oh, she also told me abt yun... happily attached... going over aust soon... gd for her... ^_^.. in fact envy very much...
suddenly feel very tired of everything... working so hard... or rather too hard... feeling really wear out... really feel like taking a break... but i still need to pull through for another 2 weeks.. i know it's short.. but i'm really wear out... waking up early, sleeping late... never at home... not much time for myself... last week, went over to tampines to see doc... registered at 12, only manage to see the doc at 4pm.. but meanwhile was shopping at tampines mall myself... pretty enjoyed the time.. shopping at my own pace... buying things as and when i like... taking a rest... sitting at a cafe, drinking coffee, reading storybook... really really very nice feeling... but too bad it was raining... other wise if i could pop by the library, it will really be quality time... but the thing is tat it's too far from home, den the next day have to wakey early.. etc etc... but really enjoyed the time with myself.... doing things tat i like... and most importantly, at my own pace.. no need to rush for tuition, or rush for work... etc...
tml got tuition... in fact is later... so need to slp soon le... otherwise tml sure super tired... it sunday again... i wish the week will always stayed in saturday afternoon...

i'm really very tired... think i say it before but i still wanna repeat myself.. everyday, waking up aat 0540 to prepare for work... reach office at 0740, leave office at 1745... reach tp at 1830.. home at 1845.. but got to leave home again at 1915 for tuition... usually reach home at ard 2200... watch a little tv, shower, etc... sleep at 0000.... den next day, repeat the whole thing again.. until friday.. den can go out in the evening.. but by den i'm already wear out.. totally switched off... den sat morning got to go tuition again... after tat work @1500 at clinic... till midnight.. den sunday... haiz... sunday usually pass the fastest... when i need sun so much... it's end so fast... before i knew it.. sob sob...

I'm reaLLy veRy vErY TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!

CherrieminT

Friday, July 07, 2006

Good times really passes very fast... faster than i ever imagine... still remembering the very first week, i'm so sick and tired of work.. and now like i've mentioned in the previous entry, enjoying every moment of my internship... People i've met there, are really nice and fun-loving... except two that i'm still super afraid of... shall not mention it here... but had really terrible experience with one of them... have been trying not to step on her tail, but in the end, some how still accidentally step on the tail... feels real sucky...

But no matter how "bird" is she, i am still enjoying my internship... haha...

enjoying the company of the "bird club".. haha... in fact, i dunno wat kind of club, cos there are animals like wolf, bird, sheep, elephant.. haha... watever huh.... haha... opps.. it's watever makes me happy~~~

haha... i realised if u are reading this entry, u might not understand wat the heck am i writing.... dun understand a single thing... haha... cos these are all nonsense that accumulated over 9 weeks.. cant possibly summarise everything... sorry guys... haha... difficult to share the "bird-ness" haha...

anyway, my internship is ending in 3 weeks time... i think i will miss the people there.. their company, their nonsense, their jokes that are not funny...

Okay, back to sth everyone understand...

i am really tired.... mentally tired... everyday, i got to wake up at 5.30am, reach workplace at 7.40am... leave workplace at 5.45pm.... this is not the end of my day okay!! den i got to head to either toa payoh north or bishan for tuition, depending on which day is it... by the time i reach home, it's usually already 10pm... it's really tiring... den when everyone is thank-ing god that it's friday... i cant... cos i still got to work on sat... tuition in the morning and clinic in the afternoon till midnight... haiz.. really started to wonder why am i working so hard... not as though i'm desperate for money... it just so happen that everything took place together... trying to find someone to cover my saturday clinic shift.. but apparently no one wants to work on saturday night... i really getting mentally wear out... uncle jimmy *opps* asked me if i am enjoying wat i'm doing... i am.. if everything does not come together... i like giving tuitions... i like my internship... i like my clinic job... but i am really mentally exhausted to have everything taking place at the same time... to leave house early in the morning... when the sun is not even anywhere in the sky i see... and only get home when the sun has already call it a day... working even harder than the sun... or rather longer than the sun... sometimes, after tuition, i might go for a jog... and by the time i reach home or rather settle down, ready for sleep, it's already 1am... den i got to wakey 5.30am in the morning to work again... den my day starts all over again... it's really very tiring...

the best thing is tat the pathetic few hours of sleep, i still dun get the best out of it... sometimes, i keep waking up throughout the sleep... 1am, 2am, 3am, 4am, even 5am.... i really dunno wat's wrong... just couldnt sleep well...
otherwise, i would be in a series of dream... although not nightmare... in fact, it's kinda of sweet.. but still it's tiring to dream so much...


there's sth i want to confess... hee... to those who are reading this.. just take it as sth u read for fun, peace laughter and joy... as some ppl might noe, over the last 5 years, i havent been in love.. single and not available... lost faith in relationship and stuff... busy with lots of school work.. family, working and working.... for some time, i thought i am immune to falling in love... secretly in love with anyone... thought that i will not like anyone anymore... really, totally no feelings at all... no matter how attractive the guy is, i am totally not interested... not hoping to be attached or stuff... but until i know this guy again, haha... of course, he doesnt noe my link, even if he does, he doesnt noe it's him... i think i'm beginning to like him... but he's happily attached... sob sob huh.. haha... but seriously i'm not depressed... in fact, i'm pretty delighted... at least now i noe tat i still like falling in love... just tat my Mr Right hasnt appear...

but seriously confessing these stuffs does not mean tat i'm desperate... it's just wat is happening to me now... i will still be waiting for my Mr Right to appear... but even if he doesn't appear, it doesnt mean tat i will cry and stuff... it just means tat things are not fated...
but still i still want to be a mother when i have the capabilities to bring up a child by myself.. haha...

CherrieminT