Tuesday, January 03, 2006
GraN, I MISS YOU!!!!Today is just the second day of the brand new year.. and i seem to be having a bit of trouble 'fulfilling' my resolution... LeaRn not to be a Cry BabY... but my tears went rolling again.. i miss you, gran... esp when i listen JJ's song... the way he call ah-ma... i just cant stop thinking abt you... it's been like almost a year since uleft... but i just cant stop thinking abt u...
阿嬷躺在病床上
呼吸有一点散漫
眼神却很温柔
i just simply cant forget the scene where gran was lying on the hospital's bed, brushing through my hair... telling me she miss me.. i was preparing for my mid term, didnt see me for 2-3days...
on the day before she discharge, she was trying to plan was to cook for us... we were telling her we miss eating at home... gran, i really miss eating the food u cook... u havent pass me ur skills... u noe?
i really feel so so guilty... the day gran left me.. i didnt talk to her much... didnt noe she will leave me so suddenly.. she was so well when she's discharge... it's just like 2 days... although the whole family has been adapting hard to life without her... but it's really really hard... i really miss her... esp when lyn is back in sch... ann's working... so is dad and mum... and i'm all alone at home... i just cant stop missing her... cant stop thinking abt her...
suddenly so many things struck me... suddenly remember tat i promise her to buy granduncle's noodle and fried oyster egg for her when i am free... but i only got it twice over 2 years... suddenly feel so bad...
i really miss the time when i can back late from work, from jogging, she will be there awake watching tv... waiting for me... the only person i can confight when i came home from work or from sch... the person who will always be willing to apply medicated oil on my problematic stomach no matter what time of the day.. even in the middle of the night... ah ma, my stomach is much more obedient nowadays... seldom diarrhoea... seldom contispate... nose bleeding occasionally... but better... i really know how to take care of myself... not as sickly as last time... dun worry too much abt me..
12:32 AM
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