Sunday, January 29, 2006
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARHAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR... today is the first day of cny.. angbow collection is real bad.. i guess this year cant even hit $100.. it's the first year celebrating new year without gran... it really feel different... uncles and aunties still came over.. but all didnt stay long... without gran, the pillar is nt there... the next oldest pillar is not useful at all.. instead, creating fears and irritation among ppl... thought nothing has yet happen.. but just pray for the best..
didnt manage to wakey in time to go praying in the morning... too tired... havent been visiting gran.. i guess she really miss me... i miss her very much also... in just a few weeks time, it's gran's 1st anniverary... my my... so fast.. cant believe...
mum's cousin came today... as usual mum is so proud of her daughters... mentioned abt me in nus.. (no big deal lor... ) den i'm working.. surviving myself.. (true, but seems like also no big deal) but she just cant seem to forget to mention abt me... and this really reminds me of gran... whoever visits her... she will never forget to mentioned abt me.. praising me on every little thing... even praise me in front of my own dad.... seriously i miss her praises.. i really miss her...
i've been visiting gran's sibling as much as i could try... dunno why.. just wanna bring the best image of myself in front of them to live up to gran praises... everytime i see them it just make me rem gran... i really miss her... everyone is sleeping now.. i got no one to talk to anymore... it makes me feel really sad...
was at the airport with aunt cousin and sisters.. aunt was telling us abt the older times... i really appreciate gran even more... there is so many stories tat was not told by gran... *of course.. she wouldnt praise herself* i wish i had done more..
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