Friday, July 07, 2006
Good times really passes very fast... faster than i ever imagine... still remembering the very first week, i'm so sick and tired of work.. and now like i've mentioned in the previous entry, enjoying every moment of my internship... People i've met there, are really nice and fun-loving... except two that i'm still super afraid of... shall not mention it here... but had really terrible experience with one of them... have been trying not to step on her tail, but in the end, some how still accidentally step on the tail... feels real sucky...
But no matter how "bird" is she, i am still enjoying my internship... haha...
enjoying the company of the "bird club".. haha... in fact, i dunno wat kind of club, cos there are animals like wolf, bird, sheep, elephant.. haha... watever huh.... haha... opps.. it's watever makes me happy~~~
haha... i realised if u are reading this entry, u might not understand wat the heck am i writing.... dun understand a single thing... haha... cos these are all nonsense that accumulated over 9 weeks.. cant possibly summarise everything... sorry guys... haha... difficult to share the "bird-ness" haha...
anyway, my internship is ending in 3 weeks time... i think i will miss the people there.. their company, their nonsense, their jokes that are not funny...
Okay, back to sth everyone understand...
i am really tired.... mentally tired... everyday, i got to wake up at 5.30am, reach workplace at 7.40am... leave workplace at 5.45pm.... this is not the end of my day okay!! den i got to head to either toa payoh north or bishan for tuition, depending on which day is it... by the time i reach home, it's usually already 10pm... it's really tiring... den when everyone is thank-ing god that it's friday... i cant... cos i still got to work on sat... tuition in the morning and clinic in the afternoon till midnight... haiz.. really started to wonder why am i working so hard... not as though i'm desperate for money... it just so happen that everything took place together... trying to find someone to cover my saturday clinic shift.. but apparently no one wants to work on saturday night... i really getting mentally wear out... uncle jimmy *opps* asked me if i am enjoying wat i'm doing... i am.. if everything does not come together... i like giving tuitions... i like my internship... i like my clinic job... but i am really mentally exhausted to have everything taking place at the same time... to leave house early in the morning... when the sun is not even anywhere in the sky i see... and only get home when the sun has already call it a day... working even harder than the sun... or rather longer than the sun... sometimes, after tuition, i might go for a jog... and by the time i reach home or rather settle down, ready for sleep, it's already 1am... den i got to wakey 5.30am in the morning to work again... den my day starts all over again... it's really very tiring...
the best thing is tat the pathetic few hours of sleep, i still dun get the best out of it... sometimes, i keep waking up throughout the sleep... 1am, 2am, 3am, 4am, even 5am.... i really dunno wat's wrong... just couldnt sleep well...
otherwise, i would be in a series of dream... although not nightmare... in fact, it's kinda of sweet.. but still it's tiring to dream so much...
there's sth i want to confess... hee... to those who are reading this.. just take it as sth u read for fun, peace laughter and joy... as some ppl might noe, over the last 5 years, i havent been in love.. single and not available... lost faith in relationship and stuff... busy with lots of school work.. family, working and working.... for some time, i thought i am immune to falling in love... secretly in love with anyone... thought that i will not like anyone anymore... really, totally no feelings at all... no matter how attractive the guy is, i am totally not interested... not hoping to be attached or stuff... but until i know this guy again, haha... of course, he doesnt noe my link, even if he does, he doesnt noe it's him... i think i'm beginning to like him... but he's happily attached... sob sob huh.. haha... but seriously i'm not depressed... in fact, i'm pretty delighted... at least now i noe tat i still like falling in love... just tat my Mr Right hasnt appear...
but seriously confessing these stuffs does not mean tat i'm desperate... it's just wat is happening to me now... i will still be waiting for my Mr Right to appear... but even if he doesn't appear, it doesnt mean tat i will cry and stuff... it just means tat things are not fated...
but still i still want to be a mother when i have the capabilities to bring up a child by myself.. haha...
10:59 PM
CherrieminT